Second Surgery

The surgery that I had in September 2010 did not fix me. In fact, it got so bad that I had to have another surgery--the same thing, a double discectomy--on February 28th. This second time was bad. Real bad. The surgery involved digging out all of the scar tissue before fixing the discs, and there were complications. White blood cells were high, infection, fever. Pain. Massive pain. Pain to the point of breaking. I never knew such pain existed. Pain so excruciating I wanted to die. The fight has been hard, and never-ending. I ended up in the hospital for 3 days instead of just overnight, and I only remember bits and pieces of the time. All I wanted was pain medicine and sleep. Five minutes after they gave me the pain medicine (Dilodin, which is stronger than Morphine), I was crying again. Muscle spasms came and went, and I can't count how many times I screamed out in pain. My poor husband was there through all of it, holding my hand and telling me I was going to be okay. I couldn't have gotten through it without his love and support. He's my world, my heart, my other half. Making it home was a fight in itself--the slightest of bumps on the road made me explode with pain inside, and when we arrived at home, I wasn't sure if I was going to make it inside the house. Eventually, the days became slightly easier to handle, and my amazing friends visited, brought food, and just showed me their love. I truly am grateful for the friends that I have. Each day, the pain goes down a bit, and the closer I come to winning this battle. I can't do this again. This needs to be the last surgery, because I want to be normal again.

Withdrawels

Tossing, turning
Stomach burning
Eyes glazing
Fever blazing
Hands shaking
Ground quaking
Head spinning
Ears ringing
Internal fire
Mad desire
Need my fix
Need it quick
Skin is crawling
Body falling
Pain bottom to top
Make it stop
It’s gonna win;
I’m giving in.

What a Week!!!

WOW what a week!!! Last Wednesday, my love collided with someone during softball, then hit the ground head first. Needless to say, he experienced a severe concussion, and we rushed him to the emergency room. They did two CT Scans and let him go, even though he didn't know the date, the year, anything. I was NOT a happy camper, and was actually quite rude to the hospital staff--that's me for ya. Well, he didn't get better. His headache didn't go away, he was having blurred vision and nausea, and got dizzy every time he stood up. Saturday I was getting a bit freaked out, so we took him to St. George to their ER--good thing we did! He ended up getting ANOTHER CT Scan, which showed some abnormalities... so they did an emergency MRI and it ended up just being a callus on the brain which is fine. More rest will do the trick, so they say. His head still pounds and he gets a bit dizzy, but he will recover just fine!

So yesterday I went to the Spine doctor in Las Vegas for a consultation. Turns out my back is worse than anyone thought, and I have a 2cm disc protrusion, so he is going to do surgery Monday! Less than a week away--they even bumped someone from the schedule to fit me in. A bit scary, but the thought of pain relief completely outweighs the nerves in my case. I'm excited to be able to sleep pain free and not wake up every few hours... excited to be able to sit in a car for more than an hour without being in excruciation pain... excited to possibly be able to dance again!!!

Focus on Fitness Weight Loss Challenge

Well, Machele and I have joined the Black Gaming Focus on Fitness Weight Loss Challenge. It's a three month weight loss contest! Our team name is the Phat Busters. So far, in the first two weeks I have lost 8 pounds. Now that's a lot for me, especially seeing how I can't work out due to my back!!! I cut out hard alcohol and sweets, and I've lowered my portions and caloric daily intake. It's been hard, but I'm pushing through it so I can win the prize! First place gets $750, which is awesome especially right before the holidays. Hopefully if I do have to get the back surgery, I can still be in the weight loss challenge and continue losing the weight. I want to get down to 110 pounds, which is what I was a year ago, before our wedding.

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined." -Henry David Thoreau-

Wow... September already??

Well I am pretty much caught up with updating my blog... and now I can't believe it's already September. One more month and I'll have been Mrs. Gomez for a whole year! Time sure flies when you're having fun, and I've had more fun this past year than ever before!
We get asked every day, "when are the babies coming?" We don't know yet :) we just know, someday. Until then, we have lots of babies/kids to spoil, including Danie'l and Jamie's new babies, and of course our future Godson, Eliyas. Love that little boy so much, he is my snugglebaby.
So much excitement in the upcoming months, with babies and birthdays and wedding and our anniversary and Halloween and... oh well, the list could go on and on!!!
I've been keeping myself really busy lately with my sewing machine. Who knew being creative could be so much fun? I've been making baby blankets, bibs, and now I'm onto these really nifty fabric keychains that go around your wrist so you don't lose your keys!!! Pictures to follow of my creations!!!

4th of July Celebration!

We had a big party at our house for the 4th of July with a lot of our closest friends... there was a flag cake (pictured), red white and blue shots, music, food, and fun!!!

Goin goin, back back, to Cali Cali!

Since we've been together, Tibo and I have gone to California every April for the Dodgers Opening Day Game. This year was no exception! We had some fun while we were there, visiting with family, going to the beach, and of course, watching the game!!! Since it was the same weekend as Easter, I'll put pics of both.